random thoughts.

bye bye old blog :)

2010-02-03T12:49:00.003+08:00

finally i've decided to stop posting on this blog. this one's all about him -- too much about him. and i believe that phase in my life written on this page has ended so why continue blogging here?

so, i'm saying my goodbye on this final post and goodbye to you too, kuya. :)

p.s. i have a new one at wordpress. better posts there. :)

liking a lot like love

2009-08-31T22:42:00.003+08:00

yea i know it's really weird. but i'm watching it on youtube right now and i kept asking myself why i hated it so much back then.

before i had this huge regret because we watched it at a movie house because for me it didn't make any sense. haha!

and now, i think it's actually a good one.

well...it just proves one point: I'VE CHANGED. :P

gaaaaaaaah.

2009-08-20T21:59:00.003+08:00

you were in my dream when i fell asleep this afternoon. it was sooo weird. but then all my dreams are weird.

i'm happy right now and i think it's better this way.

heeeheee. :P

hmm.

2009-06-28T17:28:00.004+08:00

two souls met and decided to take a long walk together towards a rainbow.

with their hands intertwined, they took each step carefully along the vast greenery then stopped.

they were at the edge of a cliff so they decided to jump.

slowly they let each other's hand go and jumped...completely unaware that they do not know where they would land.

one soul landed on a different world.

while other one fell at the end of the rainbow wondering where the other one had gone.

hmm hmm.

2009-06-24T23:48:00.002+08:00

it's past 10pm again and still i'm wide awake. haha. haven't slept early for the past couple of days. don't know why.

nothing much happened. everythings's back to normal. people are again very very busy. as for me i'm desperate to get a job or maybe a project.

jeeez. i don't know. i'm ready to leave if ever an opportunity comes. nothing would get on my way.

as much for him, nothing has changed and yes, he's still the same. i'm not sure if what's happening between me and that person is a good or bad thing.

i'm glad that we are okay. chill lang. hehe.

that's all. will get to sleep na. hehe.

grrr.

2009-06-15T22:09:00.002+08:00

conchita is now mulfunctioning. huhuhu. grabe lang nakakabadtrip kasi bad timing talaga. di tuloy ako makapagnet gamit siya. kainis talaga!

tomorrow luwas ako. hay sana okay naman at maging mabilis rin. gusto ko makauwi ng maaga e. hehe. hirap la ko makakatulong tomorrow pag magsusukat ako. haaaaay.

sana maging okay na talaga lahat. ewan ko kung makakatulog ako agad ngayon kasi parang loaded bigla utak ko dahil sa pagaayos ng kung anu ano.

super stress go away. please. hinay hinay lang o. haay.

hello again blogger :)

2009-06-07T00:16:00.002+08:00

it's already past 12 in the morning and i'm still wide awake. jeez.

maybe that explains the pimples. grr.

okay, so i had a very long day and i didn't receive any message from him. fine with me. i think 'inconsistency' is beginning again.

oh well, what can i do? he's really like that.

damn.

update. :)

2009-04-25T23:13:00.002+08:00

waaaaa! super missed blogging. it's been like what? two months? one month? since my last post here. haha.

so many things happened and i can't put into words everything. super unexpected rin kasi. at this point, i'm really happy. hiiiii. hopefully more good things will come. hehe.

really praying that i'll have another project soon. :) my 'little brother' would finally come home and i'm so looking forward to it. hehe.

hmm. so ayun. nothing much to say. basta i'm happy and i'm enjoying every minute, every second of it. :)

hello again. im back! haha.

2009-03-26T00:11:00.002+08:00

OMG! finally i'm back after exactly a month suffering from writer's block. the hell i am still affected by it. but now, i just wanted to write something here.

super missed blogging! as in. don't know what happened why i suddenly stopped. ahaha. anyway, for the past month andito lang naman ako. life is still well...practically the same for me.

so nothing much have changed but i can say that i'm happier than last month. :D yiii. naaaaah, di ako inlove. i'm just in love with the idea and the feeling that i'm actually moving forward. hehe. it's a strange feeling that somehow i'm on my own and i really love it! haha.

so that's it for now. hopefully would be able to write a new entry soon. :))

hinga. hinga.

2009-02-27T22:42:00.002+08:00

haay nahihirapan akong huminga kaya pahinga mode na.

may student license na ko! hahaha!

tomorrow is a different day. kanta yan ha. hehe.

i can't twirl no more.

2009-02-26T22:52:00.003+08:00

i need to stop. there's no point anymore. i can't do it. i can't feel it.

going back to my normal state.

now i want to leave.

wala nang twirling.

2009-02-26T00:24:00.002+08:00

supposedly di ako magbblog ngayon pero here i am typing another entry. hehehe.

lately, joa and i have been texting each other regularly. single kasi ang bessy ko so ako ang katext. hahaha. aun. nakakatawa lang mga pinaguusapan like ung mga tampuhan namin nung bata pa kami and all.

kanina nakatext ko rin si memel. hehehe. lokang un pinasend nanaman sakin ang lyrics ng song na gusto niya. buti naman this time chorus lang. hahahaha! so aun ang events. nagayos rin ako ng cabinet ko kanina. hehehe.

tomorrow magbabasa ako ng old letters. matagal ko na rin di nababasa ulit un. since wala naman akong magawa un siguro gagawin ko tomorrow.

haaay. okay goodbye kilig na ko. wala na ulit e. naglapse na. hehehe. sana mafeel ko ulit para happy.

sleep na ko. 'til next time. :)

ang kulit.

2009-02-25T00:03:00.001+08:00

grabe di naman kami close pero personal na masyado mga tanong. ang kulit kulit. di ko na nireplyan. naiinis rin kasi ako sa ganun. grrr.

anyway, sleep na ko. haaayz.

so sino ka kaya dito? hahaha!

2009-02-24T17:54:00.003+08:00

nakita ko lang sa isang album sa facebook. napagtripan kong ipost tas ilagay kung sino sa mga friends ko ung naisip ko sa bawat character description. walang magagalit. trip lang. :P

anyway, eto: ung iba nagfall sa maraming description. hahahahaha!

THE GOOD FRIEND: joanna. the best pa. actually lahat. naks! :D

THE SLOW ONE: #1 kazel #2 deza. hahahaha!

THE PIMP: wala naman. hehehe.

THE GOOD LITTLE CHURCH GIRL: jami raeee and aira :)

THE SHY ONE: ako? haha joke. augie

THE ONE THAT ALWAYS SWEARS: aceline and manelon. hahaha!

THE GRUMPY ONE: james-super ill-tempered parin. tsktsk

THE ONE THAT ALWAYS GETS HURT: ahnbh? hmmm. janette and memel. peace!

THE ONE THAT'S UP TO NO GOOD: hmmm. wala naman. haha!

THE JOCK: mua

THE ONE WITH THE BAD MEMORY: janette, memel, seth, jundel. kelangan na nila ng memory enhancers. haha!

THE GEEK: mark, jaythee hahaha!

THE INNOCENT ONE: joy haha.

THE GOODIE TWO SHOES: ewan

THE DRAMA QUEEN: memel hahaha! and janette again :P pati pala si kelogs. hahaha!

THE LAZY ONE: hmmmm...alain? haha.

THE GANGSTER: kariza, denise, jajing hahahaha!

THE STYLISH ONE: gelli, lean

THE FLIRT: definitely kelogs! more twirling! hahahaha!

THE TINY DANGEROUS ONE: aceline, denise, athe jhuvs

THE TOWER: enzo

THE ONE WITH ALL THE GOSSIP: trix, jo-p. dati pati si memel haha

THE LADIES MAN: no doubt. definitely james liwag. hahaha! peace pepito. :P

THE ONE YOU CAN DEPEND ON: marami - joel, gian,

THE ANNOYING ONE: manelon. grr. minsan si jaythee ren. haha!

THE CUTIE PIE: trix! :D

THE PRINCESS: meeeeh. hahaha! augie, kariza

THE FUNNY GUY: mister joey, jundel hahaha!

THE ONE WHO'S ALWAYS HUNGRY: memel, joy, gekai, gian, kuya jem

hahaha! ayan. naaliw talaga ako. hehehe. opinion ko lang yan ha. labyu friends! :P

YES or NO

2009-02-23T23:07:00.002+08:00

saw this at facebook so i did it out of boredom. hmmm, don't want so many people to view my answers so i decided to post it here. haha.

Asked someone to marry you?
-NO.

Kissed anyone of your Facebook friends?
-YES.

Been arrested?
-NO.

Slept in until 5pm?
-NO.

Fallen asleep at work/school?
-YES at school

Held a snake?
-NO. too scared. hehe

Ran a red light?
-NO. but my mom did several times. hahaha

Been suspended from school?
-NO. i'm a good student. :)

Written off your car/motorbike in an accident?
-NO.

Been fired from a job?
-NO.

Sang karaoke?
-YES. haha

Done something you told yourself you wouldn't?
-YES.

Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose?
-NO. it came out from my mouth. haha

Caught a snowflake on your tongue?
-NO. doesn't snow here.

Kissed in the rain?
-NO. but i think that's romantic. hahahaha

Kissed someone you shouldn't?
-NO.

Sang in the shower?
-YES. all the time. :P

Sat on a rooftop?
-as in roof? NO. pero rooftop ng building YES.

Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes?
-NO. no one would dare. hahahaha

Broken a bone?
-NO. hope i wouldn't.

Shaved your head?
-NO. i wouldn't do that

Got a tattoo?
-NO. i think it's scary. yikes.

Blacked out from drinking?
-NO. don't drink too much.

Played a prank on someone?
-YES. hahahahaha.

Felt like killing someone?
-YES. i was angry but i didn't really mean it. haha

Made your girlfriend/boyfriend cry?
-NO. nbsb. haha

Had Mexican jumping beans for pets?
-NO. what's that?

Been in a band?
-NO.

Tripped on mushrooms?
-NO.

Donated Blood?
-NO. i can't. i'm underweight. hehe

Eaten alligator meat?
-NO.

Eaten snake meat?
-NO.

Still love someone you shouldn't?
-hmmm.

Think about the future?
-YES.

Believe in love?
-YES.

okay so much for boredom.

BEST bonding moments :D

2009-02-21T22:25:00.002+08:00

went to manila yesterday para sa get together naming 4 nina memel, joa at joy. super bonding kami kina memel. grabe til 5am kaming nagkkwentuhan. hahaha!

nagmeet muna kami ni joy sa magallanes kasi di pala sanay magmrt magisa ang pinsan ko. hahaha! aun tas meet namin si memel sa gateway. kain sa burgoo kahit mejo di satisfied tas hinintay namin si joa saka kami pumunta kina memel.

sobrang saya. as in! hehehe. the best talaga. nun lang ulit kasi kaming 4 nagkausap ng ganun. so dami kwento simula sa bottom ng pyramid. hahaha! aun tas inom din ng konti. kakatuwa talaga.

mga 2am nung pumunta si seth dun kasama ung friend niya para dumaan lang. tas ayun sabay kami ni joy na umuwi sa kanya. hehehe.

grabe ang traffic pa. super tagal ng byahe. kawawa nga si seth.

pero aun. super happy dahil super saya ng bonding moments naming 4. weeeeeeeee! :D

OLD comment (from my friendster account)

2009-02-19T23:59:00.002+08:00

ngayon lang ulit ako nagopen ng friendster account ko after a very long time. nagbura ng ibang pics then binasa ko ung mga comments ng friends ko before. aun, bigla ko lang naisip ipost ung isang comment sakin dati. basta super old comment. eto:

11/15/2007 6:57 pm

si nikolette? first of all super taray. kahit mahinahon ang boses, di mo alam galit na pala. well,nakilala ko siya noong high school pa. crush ko itetch hehe.tpos naging kuya ang role ko dahil sa utos ng kanyang mahal na ina,hehe.moving on, a very smart young lady,interior designer?she offered me to design my clinic if ever mkatapos ako ng medicine hopefully i will. masunurin?mejo.a good listener sometimes when you're talking to her, it seems she is lost at wala sa sarili pero nakikinig pala, and here's the catch, she remembers everthing you said kahit ilang years pa nakalipas, parang tagaremind what happen before.talo pa nya ang ngmemory enhancers or glutaphose hehe.what else, hostess sya, kc lahat ng social gatherings ng high school barkda.what else can i say, she made me realize a lot of things, it helped me become more mature. she still calls me kuya and i will be here from now on for her and will try not to hurt her in any way. hey, testi ko haha.basa lang..wait mo lang ung iba..

ayan, ewan ko ba, feel ko lang isave dito.

short hair na ko!

2009-02-19T23:31:00.002+08:00

at last! after so many years, SHORT NA HAIR KO! as in!

woohooo! love it! sarap ng feeling ang gaan kasi. hahahaha! will post pics at my other site this weekend. tomorrow na ang bonding night with joa, memel and joy! weee! can't wait. :P

super LSS

2009-02-18T23:01:00.002+08:00

haay. i can't get katy perry's thinking of you out of my system.

"cause when i'm with him i am thinking of you, thinking of you...i wish that i was looking into your eyes"

tumutugtog talaga sa isip ko since nung dinownload ko. grabe. hahaha! again, kuya thanks for the gift of music. maganda nga. :)

isa pang sobrang nakakaLSS is smash into you by beyonce.

"i wanna run, run, smash into you..."

isa pa would be disappear also by beyonce. haaayz.

anyway, super love those songs. ewan ko kung bakit. i mean i'm not really inlove right now. parang nakakagaan lang talaga ng feeling pag napapakinggan ko un. hehe. btw, 1,2,3,4 by plain white t's would also belong to my favorites list. :D

geeeez. super thanks for the gift of music. hahahaha.

going back.

2009-02-16T23:21:00.002+08:00

read my old blog entries at my multiply site. la lang. nakakatawa. parang my world evolved around a certain person for a period of time. grabe pala. i wasn't aware na ganun. ngayon lang.

anyway, i'm really excited na magfriday na. hihi. bonding moments with my very best girl friends. :D

hmmm. til here na lang ulit. good night. :)

p.s. i'm really happy right now. contented rin sa mga nangyari. that's good diba? :)

oversleeping :I

2009-02-15T03:44:00.002+08:00

geez. i overslept. hahahaha! spent more than half of vday sleeping. first time that this happened to me. it was already past 2 in the morning when i woke up. geeez. so much for valentine's day.

anyway, spent it with friends at qc. :)

oh kamon! hihi

2009-02-11T23:24:00.001+08:00

ayan. mejo lumilipas na. hahahaha. pero hihihihi. yun ang masasabi ko. :P

pero bakit ba ang mga tao e inaassume na dahil sa kanya kaya ako kinikilig? rawr. ahaha. nasanay na siguro sila. pero hindi mali mali. hihihi.

kras. homay kras. :))

natutuwa lang talaga ako. parang kay bumble bee lang. hahahaha! codes again. :P

when i love you a little less than before...

2009-02-10T00:06:00.004+08:00

love love love the song broken strings by james morrison. i even posted it on my multiply site. hahahaha!

anyway, that would probably be my song. hehe. first line pa lang napasmile na agad ako. let me hold you for the last time it's the last chance to feel again...that night came back to me. that particular moment when i told him that he was hugging me too tight and his response was similar to that line.

hmmm. hehehe.

anyway, here's my favorite line:

"oh it tears me up, i tried to hold on but it hurts too much, i tried to forgive but it's not enough to make it all okay."

really, you can't play on broken strings. but i'm so thankful that we became friends. :)

oh my...

2009-02-04T23:31:00.002+08:00

probably today was my longest day. homaygawd. seriously, kaloka as in. one thing that i learned:

there are people who are not true to theirselves. geeeeeeez. watch out 'coz in the real world, there are plenty of them.

graaaaaaaaaaabe.

tagged. :P

2009-02-03T22:39:00.003+08:00

i was tagged at facebook but i chose to post my answers here. hahahaha.

1. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?
- nope. unique name ko in a way. haha.

2. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED?
- last night. but it wasn't really crying. i was just too stressed. last time i cried REALLY hard was last december during our xmas party.

3. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
- not really. i kinda like it. but it wasn't as nice as before. hahaha!

4. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT?
- pampanga's best tocino. hahaha. current addiction. :P

5. DO YOU HAVE KIDS?
-huh? i'm just 21. hahaha! probably 10 years from now.

6. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?
- yez. haha.

7. DO YOU USE SARCASM?
- a lot when i'm quite pissed.

8. DO YOU STILL HAVE YOUR TONSILS?
- oo naman no.

9. WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP?
- not sure. maybe. :D

10. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE CEREAL?
- koko crunch!!!!!!!!! yum yum! :D

11. DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF?
- no. haha.

12. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM?
-ung mint na may chocolate bits or chocolate. :D

13. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE?
- appearance. hehe.

14. RED OR PINK?
- pink.

15. WHAT IS YOUR LEAST FAVORITE THING ABOUT YOURSELF?
- my knees. hahaha.

16. WHO DO YOU MISS THE MOST?
- my friends of course. :D

17. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO COMPLETE THIS LIST?
- people don't usually view this blog so, NOPE. hahaha.

18. WHAT COLOR PANTS AND SHOES ARE YOU WEARING?
-i'm wearing my pajama. stripes- shades of green, blue and a dash of yellow. haha!

19. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW
- not listening to anything.

20. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE?
- GREEN love love greeeeeeeen :D

21. FAVORITE SMELLS?
- it depends on my mood. the best would be escada pacific paradise. but one of my favorites would also be the smell of polo double black which was seth's perfume.

22. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
- janette! she's back! woohoo!

23. DO YOU LIKE THE PERSON WHO POSTED THIS NOTE?
- yes. meryl's a sweet girl but i haven't seen her for ages. haha.

24. FAVORITE SPORTS TO WATCH?
- honestly, i'm not into sports. but sometimes i watch tennis on tv or basketball.

25. HAIR COLOR?
- burgandy. :P

26. EYE COLOR?
-black.

27. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS?
- nope. love my new eyeglasses. :D

28. FAVORITE FOOD?
- hmmm. dami. haha!

29. SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDINGS?
- happy endings.

30. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED?-watched on screen? twilight with memel. haha!

31. WHAT COLOR SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING?
- red

32. SUMMER OR WINTER?
- winter.

33. HUGS OR KISSES?
-it depends kung sino ung maghuhug or magkikiss. nyahahaha!

34. FAVORITE DESSERT?
- smores cake from red ribbob, leche flan, ube, or a caramel bar from max's

35. MOST LIKELY TO RESPOND?
- ewan. wala. haha.

36. LEAST LIKELY TO RESPOND?
- ewan din

37. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING NOW?
- too busy kaya wala. doing plans on autocad.

38. WHAT IS ON YOUR MOUSE PAD?
- i don't have one. haha

39. WHAT DID YOU WATCH ON TV LAST NIGHT?
- a movie at disney channel. don't know the title.

40. FAVORITE SOUND(S)?
- anything basta feel ko at maganda.

41. ROLLING STONES OR BEATLES?- beatles.

43. DO YOU HAVE A SPECIAL TALENT?
-SINGING! hahaha! joke. drawing? haha.

44. WHERE WERE YOU BORN?
- community hospital here at san pablo city

45. DO YOU HAVE ANY TATTOOS?
-nope.

46. WHOSE ANSWERS ARE YOU LOOKING FORWARD TO GETTING BACK?
- i don't really mind. hahaha4

47. HOW DID YOU MEET YOUR SPOUSE/SIGNIFIGANT OTHER?
- geeeeez. ala nga kong boyfriend e. hahaha!

okay finished! :D geeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeez, i'm really tired. ganto pala ang real life. geeeeez.

i still do...

2009-01-31T22:00:00.002+08:00

i believed that everything was normal between us. i thought i was right, but now i realized that i was wrong.

some things are better left unsaid because things are way much better than before. and yet, still it's hard to keep an unspoken truth that i really miss him.

weeeee!

2009-01-28T23:28:00.002+08:00

client meeting kanina. ok naman. :D

tas another prospect client meeting after that. ok din. :D

tas kanina lang another prospect client c/o seth. haha. sana maging okay. :D

happy day. :D

sourcing day

2009-01-27T23:29:00.002+08:00

woke up early again for another busy day. hehehe.

anyway, ate lunch at rsm resto. yum! yum! bonding moments with mama and inay. nakakatawa si inay. hahahaha! di daw siya magbabayad ng bill dahil ayaw daw niya mabawasan pera niya. hahahaha!

i wish i can drive and have my own car soon. *dreamy mode*

my online portfolio :D

2009-01-26T22:37:00.003+08:00

finally, i have one now. hahaha. here's the link: http://nikolettefraginal.blogspot.com/

pictures of my design projects will be posted there. :D

btw, the blind item did make a lot of noise. wahahahaha!

antok na ko.

2009-01-25T22:24:00.001+08:00

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz. tutulog na ko mayamaya. haaaayz.

at last rest day ko tomorrow! weeee! :D

shall we order?

2009-01-24T22:40:00.002+08:00

we went to sm sta. rosa this morning then ate lunch at max's restaurant (treat ko lola ko at si mama) and there was one funny moment which i will never forget.

mama: "do we have soup already or shall we order?"
waiter: "shall we order ma'am."

i remained silent when i heard the waiter's response. hehehe. and then mama looked at me. hahaha. aun. hahahahaha!

first long trip na si mama nagdrive ng car. wahaha! pede na sa manila. :D

fiesta!

2009-01-23T22:03:00.002+08:00

san ildefonso fiesta. spent one whole day there with relatives and obviously, i ate a lot. hahahaha! my lolo mike who was so drunk gave me 500 pesos. wahahahaha! late graduation gift daw. kulang pa nga daw. 1000 daw pero 500 daw muna ngayon. next time ung balance. hahahahaha!

anyway, enzo was supposed to come 'coz i'll introduce him to ate ushi. hahaha! kaso di natuloy. haha. sayang!

tomorrow will be another busy day. jeeeez. good thing wala akong boypren. wala akong time for that. hahahaha! :P

finished!

2009-01-22T23:19:00.002+08:00

tapos na ang project! woohooo! job well done. :D

i'll post some pics on my next entry. :D

happiness is really here: CAREER :D

whew!

2009-01-21T22:54:00.003+08:00

went to the site again to check the areas. it's almost done. :D

and then later in the afternoon, enzo went there out of boredom. hahaha. tinreat ko na ng dinner sa suki- japanese resto something located at the back of rcc. in fairness sarap ng food. after ng kwentuhan, uwian na.

hopefully maging okay ang day tomorrow. :)

btw, i still need another huge painting. yay!

exhausted.

2009-01-19T23:43:00.002+08:00

we went to check my project again which will be turned over this weekend. whew! this is really a very exhausting week.

anyway, sobrang kati talaga ng lalamunan ko. parang may sumasabit lagi. aygu. kelan kaya mawawala 'to? hayayayay.

ayan, la nanaman sense. might as well end this and go to sleep. nyt.

update ng busy life

2009-01-19T00:22:00.002+08:00

i wasn't able to post for the past few days. super busy kasi next sunday na ang house blessing ng project ko. almost everyday nasa site kami ni ma to check everything. it was really exhausting pero ok lang. hehe.

last thursday, i went out with joel, gelli, enzo and aj kasi fiesta sa city proper. kwentuhan nga lang kami kina aj then we went home afterwards. :)

hay, ayan morning na. i need to sleep already kasi dami pang gagawin tomorrow. haayz.

ang "pinakamababait" kong friends na lalaki :P

2009-01-14T23:07:00.007+08:00

may nainggit kaya ibang version naman. haha. in no particular order sila ang pinakamababait sakin. as in since high school. :D

ALAIN

hmmm. best friend ko na lalaki nung high school pero ewan ko nga ba nagresign ako e pero best friends pa sila ni joa hanggang ngaun. :D sabi ng lola ko "pinakapogi daw sa boys ngayon" ang friend kong ito. huwell, mabait lang talaga lola ko pati malabo na mata. haha. anyway, nung high school siya ang laging naghahatid sakin pag di ako masusundo since di ako marunong magcommute magisa. siya rin ang nagbigay samin ni joa ng friendship ring ba yun na pambata naman. sobrang nakakatawa. pero in fairness galante si alain nung high school. haha. ngayon nga pala ang taba taba na niya. wahaha! parang buntis kay beybi james. hahaha! peace alain. ^_^v

JOEL

also known as MISTER JOEY. wahahahaha! nako isa talaga sa pinakamaaasahan ang taong 'to. bukod kay alain, isa siya sa naghahatid din sakin nung high school pero hanggang sa pagsakay lang sa trike. hahahaha. minsan malabo kausap kasi parang lost lagi. pero sobrang saya kasama. at sobrang saya niya talaga pag kasama rin si lani. hehehe. sobrang bait. kahit asarin di talaga nagagalit. unless lagyan ng pusa ang bag niya. aun dun talaga si mr joey magagalit. hahaha!

GIAN

extra si joa sa pic. hahaha! si gian ang isa sa mga nasasabihan ko talaga ng problems ko. as in. siya ang may alam ng line na "lagi na lang akong iniiwan" nung third year high school. haha! secret na lang kung sinong nagsabi ng line na yun. hahaha! anyway, ngayon siya ang isa sa mga tagasundo at tagahatid ko pag may mga lakad. hindi kasi tumatanggi unless di xa pede. :D

JAMES

pepito ang tawag ko sa kanya since nung naging sila ng aking bespren dati. siya naman ang best friend ni memel. nung una di kami close kasi inaaway ko pag may ginagawang bad kay joa. pero nung hindi na sila weird dahil naging close naman kami. isa rin sa mga nasasabihan ko ng problems ko at naging saksi sa crying moments two years ago. hehe. btw, sabi niya di na daw siya womanizer ngayon. sana nga. good boy na daw siya. sana nga. hehe. siya nga pala ang tatay ni beybi james na wala pang mommy for now. haha! tenk you nga pala sa cake pepito! :D

ayan. mababait naman silang lahat pero sila ang nasa top naman ng list ko sa boys. at thankful talaga ako na naging friends ko sila. naks! :D

i love...

2009-01-12T22:36:00.006+08:00

THE NEW MCDO COMMERCIAL! :D

i saw it last night and i fell in love with it. super cute and the theme was so nice. huling el bimbo by the eheads as its backgroud music made the whole commercial rock! LOVE IT! :D i posted the vid on my lj account since i don't know how to imbed here. haha.

MY NEW SHIRT! :D

pinkish-purpleish vintage shirt tas may starbucks logo. sobrang astig. :D tita mariben gave me one yesterday as her christmas gift and i super love it! will wear it asap. hahaha!

MY NEW SONG DOWNLOADS :)

will give credit to seth. :) thank you. the songs were really nice. although iisa ung theme when i analyzed the lyrics. pero he still knows ung gusto ko na music. it's a happy thought. :)

yay!

2009-01-10T23:53:00.003+08:00

bored. super corny mode. haha. just finished watching a movie na di ko feel na panoorin before. e since ala akong mapanood na maganda, ok fine panoorin na nga. ok lang naman. hahahaha!

i had a very good dream last night. :D sana ngayon din. hehe.

so far, ok naman lahat. sana magkaron ulit ng next project soon. sana. hehe.

i'm sooooooo excited na sa pagdating ni janet!!!!!!! can't wait! :D

weee u weee u weee

2009-01-09T23:56:00.002+08:00

nakakatawa lang kanina kasi si lean nagpm bigla para lang itanong kung ano daw ba ung title nung wee u wee na song na kalevel ng ayer ayer. grabe sobrang nakakatawa talaga! hahaha! ms. officer pala un. haha!

anyway, i need to sleep early. i finished breaking dawn already! woohooo! :D

next time na ulit. :D

my best & favorite girl friends in the whole world! :D

2009-01-08T22:49:00.019+08:00

meet MEMEL

siya ang pinaka favorite friend ko. :) isa sa mga friends ko na super nakkwentuhan ko talaga ng lahat. favorite visitor din sa bahay. 10-5, 11-7. haha! ganon katagal. basta pinakafavorite ko talaga sa mga favorite friends ko 'tong babaeng 'to. super sayang kasama lalo na sa kainan at kwentuhan. wahahaha! :D

meet KELOGS

favorite friend ko rin. the best seatmate that i had nung high school. imagine third year at fourth year high school seatmates na kami. wahahaha! basta super sayang kasama ng babaeng 'to. one of the best persons that i've met and super rare ng kanyang kind. hahaha! totoong tao talaga. pero may pagkatangahin din (sori kelogs haha) pagdating kay mister. hmmm. ahaha!

meet JANETTE

my dear lola. huwell nasa london na siya pero uuwi siya sa feb 3! weee! sobrang love ko din ang babaeng ito dahil napakarami naming moments together lalo na nung college. hahaha! siya ang kasama kong napapagalitan sa bus, ang kamoment ko sa sunken, etc. etc. hehehe. like kelogs and memel, sobrang true ang babaeng ito at sobrang sayang kasama. miss ko na si lolaaaa. haay.

meet AUGIE

my sinister sister. wahahaha! ugzsie ang tawag ko jan kasi binigyan niya ko ng nickname na kooksie dati. haha! kasama ko sa pangaaway kay jaythee at basta sa mga ganong things. nako at first iisipin mo tahimik pero pag napadaldal nako, dirediretcho yan. hahaha! siya ang kasama ko sa pagiging matakaw nung college pero kahit ganon pareho naman kaming di masyadong tumataba. haha! haaay...kakamiss na rin ang babaeng ito.

meet JOY

ang super love ko na pinsan. classmates din kami since grade school at magkabarkada rin kami. wahahaha! best friends naman sila ni memel. nako, ang pinsan kong 'to ang pinakaokay na kasama sa okrayan at syempre sa kainan. ang panlalait ata ay nasa blood namin pareho. pero mas malala siya. hahahaha! sobrang sayang kasama. di mawawalan ng laughtrip moments. :D

lastly...meet JOANNA

my dear bessy. nako since kindergarten days pa. ganong katagal. although nung grade school kasi mejo nagkaron ng ibang circle of friends kami kasi di kami classmates. pero nung high school ayun, best friends na ulit! :D sobrang opposite ko ang babaeng ito pero kahit ganon love ko yan. siya ang talagang may alam ng lahat lahat. as in. at kahit na lagi kaming magkaiba ng opinions and everything, ganun parin kami. hahaha. basta the best talaga yan! :D

ayan. sila ang nasa top talaga ng list ko. as in. SOBRANG LOVE KO SILA at super thankful ako na friends ko sila. :D

i was about to, but i didn't.

2009-01-07T23:53:00.003+08:00

memel and i had our bonding moments again. she stayed from 10am til 5 pm. :D kwentuhan. kwentuhan. super kwentuhan. almost a month na since the last time that we saw each other kaya dami kwento. hehehe.

anyway, i already have a facebook account and i'm beginning to love it. thanks to kelogs. :D

i haven't checked my friendster account lately unless i'll have notifications regarding new comments, messages, etc. gusto ko na ngang iabandon pero ayoko rin naman. labo. hehe. ewan ko ba, parang link kasi ung friendster ng mga things before kaya di ko na rin lagi inoopen.

pero kanina, i was about to click na ung account kasi nagbabasa ako ng old comments and testimonials but, i realized na ung kay ate lizette pala ung gamit ko kasi may pinaupload sakin. tiningnan ko lang pala ung profile ko using her account. hahahaha! un pa naman ung time na nagkaron ako ng courage na tingnan ulit. hahaha.

in the end, hindi ko parin ginawa. hahaha. and maybe i won't dare kasi di ko na feel e. hehe.

i loooove GREEN most.

2009-01-06T23:39:00.003+08:00

yes, that's my favorite color. and ella's too. :D it may not be that obvious but, it really is. haha.

i don't exactly know why but, i think it started when my aunt gave a lot of green shirts to me. hmmm...no wait, i think it was when my mom bought the kerokerokeropi bag when i was in fourth grade...i love the color green since then. :D

so, my future home will be full of green stuff as accent pieces. love love the green area rug that i saw last saturday! hahahaha. love it!

now i hope my ipod's color would be green. but my aunt said she purchased the pink one. hahaha. ok lang. gift naman sakin un. and i love pink too. :D

looking forward to have more GREEN STUFF! :D

at last i finished book 2 :)

2009-01-04T23:49:00.004+08:00

i did! weee! that means i'm already halfway. hahahaha! hopefully i'll finish breaking dawn this week. :)

a while ago i just had a conversation with ugzsie through chat. honestly, nakakatakot ung surgery that she's going to undergo this wednesday or thursday and i'm really praying that everything will be alright.

last night after i finished my entry, i visited my livejournal account and then i saw one entry there which have a link to seth's blog. i never checked his blog for so long because i believed that he already abandoned it after posting one entry there. but, i was surprised when he updated it last christmas and i saw a picture of a cute little girl - probably she's his neice. wala lang. ang cute cute talaga. hehehe.

so aun. and then i went to sleep after that. maybe it was around 3 or 4 in the morning when my mom woke me up telling me that i was dreaming. and yes i was. haha. natakot si ma kasi umuungol daw ako. hehe. it was one of those vivid dreams that i usually had. this time it was our trip to tagaytay and then joa and i bought a toothbrush and a facial wash...then mr joey was there, they were all there and then my mom woke me up so i never knew what happened next.

okay, the dream was nonsense but, i know it was funny even if i can't remember the details.

anyway, i'm already sleepy so i'm ending this. :)

when edward cullen's words remind me of someone i know...

2009-01-03T23:04:00.003+08:00

SOME REALIZATIONS...

i've started reading the twilight saga ever since my sinister sister ugzsie said that it's a good book. i actually bought the first three books then my bessy gave me the last one this christmas. :)

i haven't finished breaking dawn yet. haha. ang haba kasi pati i can't read it ng tuloy tuloy.

anyway, i was thinking a while ago and i realized that he really does remind me of the main character. HIS WORDS were just like the ones that edward say to bella. as in.

and then i tried to remember the chapter mind over matter sa twilight (page 296 ata)...un kasi ung sobrang tumatak sa isip ko kasi ung first paragraph best describes ung gesture niya towards me before.

weird but true, edward cullen may exist. maybe not as perfect but, somehow a certain person could possess some of his traits in real life just like someone i used to know so well.

btw, sabi niya siya daw si edward. (lol)

byebye 2008.

2008-12-31T23:22:00.002+08:00

ilang minutes na lang 2009 na. bilis. another year will be over again in a while. kanina nakakatuwa ung usapan namin ni pepits. hehehe. in fairness seryoso ang usapan namin.

nakausap ko rin kanina lang sa ym si seth. aun mahirap parin. di ko na rin alam sasabihin ko e. one thing lang na clear is aware din pala siya na bitin usapan namin nung xmas party. kala ko kasi ako lang nakafeel nun. di pala.

anyway, sana 2009 will be a great year. :D SANA. happy sana. aun.

one month

2008-12-23T23:18:00.000+08:00

ang bilis. one month na agad. pero ok naman so far. hehehe.

HAPPY naman. :D

malapit na christmas! weeee!

3 days na lang. :)

2008-12-22T22:12:00.001+08:00

three days to go PASKO NAAAAA! hahaha.

so wala nanaman akong masabi. la pumapasok sa isip ko. kung anu ano lang tuloy tong tinatype ko. hahahaha!

inuubo parin. hay.

excited na sa xmas party! :))

sleeeeeeeepy.

2008-12-21T22:30:00.003+08:00

my grandma's alarm clock never stopped ringing at 3am in the morning and i woke up too early because of that.

and then we went to alabang to get the lighting fixtures plus to buy the fabric for the window treatments.

i was exhausted. and now, i'm soooo sleepy.

writer's block

2008-12-20T23:05:00.000+08:00

i can't write anything.

huhuhu. sama ng feeling.

hayz.

2008-12-19T20:35:00.002+08:00

ngayon lang ulit nakapagnet. hehe. busy kasi. :D

sobrang inuubo parin. may sipon parin. nahihirapan na ako. huhuhu. sana maging ok na ko bago man lang magxmas. haaaay.

lagi parin nagkakaron ng nightmares. sabi ko nga kay joa pede nang gawan ng script. grabe na kasi e. haaay.

la na ko ulit masabi. kelangan ko nang matapos ang craft thinggees ko. :))

bad dreams kept haunting me

2008-12-15T20:38:00.003+08:00

i had another bad dream last night. i don't remember what exactly happened sa dream. basta he was there and it was sad. i woke up early because of that. pero nakatulog ulit ako. tapos when i woke up, 10am na and limot ko na ung previous na dream.

a while ago, kachat ko si gian na in a bad mood. sabi ko na lang sa kanya "be happy". ang ironic ako pa nagadvice nun. parang sarili ko dapat ang sabihan ko nun.

"be happy koo. you deserve to be."

i know, i do. but at one point, di mawawala ung sadness...ung pain. it will remain. di ko lam kung hanggang kelan, maybe it will take time--a very long time.

hopefully, i'll get through it next year. i'm not counting on it, but i'll try my very best.

SET YOU FREE.

2008-12-13T20:36:00.003+08:00

one song that would probably describe what i feel right now.

i downloaded mymp's version of this song which was originally sung by the side a band and everytime i listen to it, i would always remember him and what happened between us.

here's the lyrics:

SET YOU FREE

We often fool ourselves

And say that it's love

Only cause when it's gone

We end up being lonely

So how are we to know

That it just isn't so

That we just have to let each other go

There were many times

When we shared precious moments

But later realized

They were only stolen moments

So how are we to know

That it just wasn't so

That we just had to let each other go

If loving you is all that means to me

When being happy is all I hope you'd be

Then loving you must mean

I really have to set you free

Each day we meet my love for you

Keeps growing stronger

But everytime we meet

Makes leaving you so much harder

So how are we to know

That this just wasn't so

That we just have to let each other go

If loving you is all that means to me

When being happy is all I hope you'd be

Then loving you must mean

I really have to set you free

Letting go is not an easy task

When smiling feels like I must wear this lonely mask

It hurts deep inside

And I just cannot hide

That there's anguish at the thought

That we should have to part

If loving you is all that means to me

When being happy is all I hope you'd be

Then loving you must mean

I really have to set you free

everything seems to be normal afterall

2008-12-12T22:11:00.003+08:00

inuubo parin ng sobra. syet talaga. huhuhu.

anyway, what happened today? nothing much. another normal day. i woke up early, i had a bad dream but i don't want to tell the details of that dream here in my blog. it was so bad. and i don't want to remember it.

again, i had new realizations and i'll write all of it as soon as i'm ready. hehe.

still, i haven't posted anything new on my multiply site. i just edited some things but, there's nothing new.

reality check: i still think about him.

rawr.

2008-12-11T23:35:00.002+08:00

grabe. it took me almost five hours para lang mahanap ang multiply theme na feel ko. hay. kakapagod. haay.

what happened today? wala lang. normal day again. sobrang inuubo parang may pumuputok lagi. wahahaha! kadiri lang ang phlegm. buti ngayon medyo ok na.

sana mawala na ubo at sipon ko.

may boses na nga pala ulit ako! hehehehe! :))

i can't talk, just write.

2008-12-10T22:41:00.003+08:00

i'm sick. sinisipon plus super ubo.

i haven't been able to speak for the past couple of hours since i ate dinner. huhuhuhu.

memel and i watched twilight at last! hahaha! and since we spent one whole day talking to each other, except when we were already watching the movie, i lost my precious voice. huhuhuhu.

daldal kasi e. hahahaha!

but then, losing my oh so beautiful voice is okay 'coz i spent one HAPPY DAY with my favorite friend! :))

more happy blogs to come cause i'm happy! :))

at least for now. drama. hahaha.

achoooo! aaaachoooo!

2008-12-08T23:08:00.001+08:00

haaaay. sobrang sinisipon ako ngayon kasi naman biglang lumamig ang weather. haaaay.

anyway, happy naman kasi daming ok na nangyari. hehehehe. happy! happy!

ayun. so far, ok naman ako. coping up. hehe. kaya ko 'to!

HAPPY. HAPPY. SMILE. ^^,

ang lameeeeg.

2008-12-01T22:56:00.001+08:00

december naaaaaaaa! at ang lamig lamig. as in. aun. kanina nagstart na maghanap ng furniture para sa client pero la naman nakitang maganda dito sa san pablo. hay.

nalulumbay parin pero fight parin! hehe. la maagawa ganun talaga ang life.

miss ko na si joa. haaay.

some good things have to end.

2008-11-24T22:20:00.003+08:00

i did everything that i can today just to keep myself busy. i cleaned almost every furniture piece that we have, dusting all the dirt especially the ones with carvings. i don't usually do it. i just have a reason why i did it today.

last night, i'll admit that i wasn't able to get a good night sleep. i've been so restless in my sleep that i woke up with my blanket twisted on my body.

i still haven't cried yet. and i think it's a bad thing. i don't know whatever this is that i feel. pain maybe.

i know that everything between us is now over. the book was again closed.

happy nga ba ang day?

2008-11-22T20:12:00.002+08:00

before i turned 21, i tried to remember how i spent my 20th birthday last year. sobrang saya ko nun. all smiles. kahit lima lang kami sa tomato kick(ako, janette, augie, mark, jaythee) masaya talaga. walang sadness. super happy. wala akong wishlist nun. masaya kasi nung time na un...

kahapon lang ang birthday ko. actually natatakot ako na dumating ung day na yun. ewan ko ba. hindi ko rin alam ung reason talaga kung bakit. siguro natatakot ako na di matutupad ung wishes ko. pero aware naman ako dun. ewan. basta.

sabi nila pag birthday, dapat masaya. laging masaya. kaya happy birthday. pero happy nga ba ang day?

HAPPY ANG DAY KASI...

*first na bumati si janette. mga past 12am. buti gising pa ko. nakakatawa nga e. haha. ayun. happy. tagal ko na rin kasi na di nakausap. after nun, natulog na ko.

*nagising ako na kinakantahan ako ng lola ko ng happy birthday. haha. since bata ako ganun siya lagi. hehehehe. walang pagbabago sa routine. :))

*went to church para magsimba. tapos nung dumating dito sa bahay, tumawag pamangkin ko, kinantahan ako ng happy birthday tita koo...hahaha. ang cute cute. haha.

*nagluto si ma ng spag. yumyum! hehe. yoko rin kasi magcelebrate sabi ko dito na lang sa bahay. hehe.

*dumating mga pamangkin ko. haha. ayun masaya. naglaro kami. hahaha. tapos kinantahan ulit ako ng happy birthday tita koo. happy happy. :)) hahaha!

*binigyan ako ng pamankin ko ng flower. sweeet. hehe. tinago ko ung flower. remembrance. haha.

*maraming bumati na friends. kahit may isang bata na akala nov 18 ang birthday ko. kamon gian! hahaha! pero thank you sa mga nakaalala. eto from pinakauna hanggang last: janette, kariza, james, alain, enzo, joa, jami, mark, chona, gian, richmond, deza, cynthia, pam, astrid, denise, joel, joy, gelli, chatty, dan, aira, memel (ikaw nga ang last sa araw na 'to). at mga late bumati: kelogs, ace, athe jhuvs(di ko kasi nareceive ung message mo kahapon), augie (ok excused ka kasi 21 pa lang jan), ryan. yan. super thanks. :))

ayan. happy day. :D

PERO...HINDI MASYADONG HAPPY ANG DAY KASI...

*di nagexpect pero patuloy na naghope. wala. sabi nila ok lang. pero sa totoo lang hindi e. nakakalungkot lang. ayun. sorry malabo. basta.

*may mga taong di nakakalimot dati pero nakalimot ngayon. baka walang load. baka nagkamemory gap. o baka ayaw ka lang batiin. la magagawa. tapos na naman e.

HAAAY. going back sa wishlist ko, 5 OUT OF 6 ang natupad. obviously.

uhm, special thanks kay memel sa gift na bashful grass also known as makahiya na nasa itlog. hahaha! ayun. alain, salamat na rin sa gip op prendship mo. hahaha! yan.

la na ko masabi. sana masaya na talaga ang birthday next year. as in ung gaya nung feeling nung nag-20 ako. ayun. :D

geeeeeeeez.

2008-11-18T23:14:00.005+08:00

tonight as i type this entry, i am thinking about him and i hate it. i want him to be out of my mind but i can't get him out.

how am i supposed to live a normal kind of life when i always feel this way?

i just want to get this over and done with? i don't know what to feel anymore! argh!

geeez.

ONE WEEK.

2008-11-14T22:57:00.003+08:00

IT'S EXACTLY A WEEK BEFORE I TURN 21. so whuuut? no big deal. another year older. so? NO BIG DEAL TALAGA.

i'm not really expecting that something big will happen on that day. but i'm hoping that everything will be okay as i celebrate my birthday.

okay got nothing more to say. might as well end this nonsense entry. :D

miss ko na si janette. haaay...

2008-11-13T00:57:00.002+08:00

waaaa! namimiss ko na si lola. tagal ko na rin walang balita sa kanya. haaay. ano na kayang nangyayari dun? hmmm. haaay, nakakamiss talaga lalo na pag ganito ang feeling na di mapakali. haha. miss ko na mga payo nun. haaaay....

anyway, wishlist update: 4 out of 6 :D

haaay. hehe.

grade six moments :))

2008-11-06T19:06:00.004+08:00

after so many years, ngayon ko lang ulit (pati ni kelogs) nakausap si pam. :) kabarkada ko nung grade school . hehe. ayan, thanks sa plurk! hahaha!

aun, napagkwentuhan lang ung mga paglalaro ng sikyo dati. kaya eto nagbblog nanaman ako. naalala ko kasi bigla ung ibang moments. haha.

anyway, grade six...puberty stage? hmmm...nung time na 'to ung barkada namin ung mga bata ang isip. hahaha. may ilan na nagdadalaga at nagbibinata na. haha! pero pag sikyo time na nakow, maraming naeexcite. hahaha!

eto ang ilan sa nakakatawa at di ko makakalimutan na moments:

*SIKYO. boys vs. girls. sa dairy ko nandun pa ung scores. talo lagi ang boys. hahaha! before assembly, recess time, pe time (pag tapos na kung ano man ipapagawa samin), lunch time at dismissal walang sawa kaming naglalaro nan. haha! adik lang no?

*ANG ALAMAT NG GYM. pero dahil mabait ako, di ko na sasabihin kung ano ba 'to. tanungin niyo na lang si lean 'bout dun. hehehe.

*TAGUAN. ayan, dito kasi nagfafall ung alamat ng gym. pero di ko na ikkwento. hehehehe. mas naging masaya nung gumagamit na ng walkie talkie ni kelogs para may communication ung mga naghahanap. hahahaha! may nagaway dahil sa walkie talkie na yan. uhmmm...kelogs kilala mo ba? hahaha!

*may water tank sa may amphitheater. ICE WATER naman ung game. again, boys vs. girls ito. at may mga umaakyat talaga ng water tank na un kahit nakapalda tulad nina kelogs at pam. hahaha! sana hindi kayo nabosohan nung mga lalaki. hahaha!

*sa sikyo: may time na niloloko si jundel about sa "touch ka!" "touch ka rin!" di ko tanda ung story nito. basta may ganito. hahahaha!

*nagalit si mrs. coronado kasi inadjust ung clock nung time ng math. ayun, patay. hahaha! grade six pa lang masasama na. hahaha.

*ang iwasan ng magkakalove team. grabe lang nung time na 'to. as in pag niloloko ka sa may crush sayo o sa crush mo, todo talaga ang "uuuuuuuuuuuuuy". ayun, nagiiwasan talaga ng todo. as in hindi pedeng magdikit kasi lolokohin agad. hahaha!

*maraming may crush at adik sa Moffats! hahahaha!

*hindi pa matatangkad ung ibang boys. si manelon lang talaga ung napagiwanan sa height ngayon. haha!

*nakabasag si manelon ng flourescent light sa corridor dahil sa paltok bola. hahahaha!

*ganito pa ang tawag sa mga taong ito:
si kelogs ay kristine pa.
si mua ay romy pa.
si lean ay leandro pa.
si alain ay randolfh pa.
si jo-p ay joseph pa.

*hmmm...may nanay na sinusugod ung nanloloko sa anak niya na bakla. di ko na sasabihin ang name. obvious na un sa mga may alam. haha.

so aun. la na ko maalala. marami pang uso na games nun. luksong baka, luksong tinik, langit lupa, etc. haha.

sabi nga ni pam gaano daw kaya kami ka-hyper dati. nakow, sobrang hyper talaga! hahaha!

hehehehe. super memorable childhood. :D

wishlist bago ako mag-21 :)

2008-11-04T23:32:00.009+08:00

in a matter of weeks tatanda na ulit ako. hahaha. 17 days na lang to be exact. hehe. hopefully matupad kung ano man ang nasa list na 'to. sobrang simple lang naman e.

before i turn 21, sana...

1. magkaron ako ng raket slash project. hehehe.

2. mabili ko na ung last two books ng twilight saga. hmmm...feel ko na talaga basahin.

3. makita sina joa at memel. nakita ko na kasi si joy. bonding moments. sana sana.

4. makita ang college friends. kahit nagtatago ako dahil magpapalibre sila. hahaha.

5. makausap na talaga ang taong wala nang ginawa kundi umiwas para maging malinaw na ang malalabo.

6. may surprise o nakakasurprise na pangyayari. hahaha.

ayan. ang konti. hehehe. simple lang naman talaga e. ung fourth matutupad na kung di magbabago ang plans. haha.

hindi ko kelangan ng regalo, sana lang talaga matupad lahat. hopefully.

ung second to the last milagro ata ang kelangan para matupad.

oh well...move on na.

hayskul layp , oh my hayskul layp...

2008-10-29T18:51:00.003+08:00

MGA KALOKOHAN AT KATATAWANAN NUNG HIGH SCHOOL DAYS. from first to fourth year. wala lang. tulad ni kelogs, namiss ko lang bigla ulit ang high school days. ang mga panahon na pede kang hindi magaral, ang panahong hindi ka magiging haggard. hehe.

may blog na ako before about unforgettable moments nung high school pero dami palang kulang dun. so...eto na ung di ko naisama. haha.

friends, kung may namiss ako sabihin niyo na lang. hahaha!

FIRST YEAR (yellow pearl)

uhm, sa canossa kasi mga stones at jewels ung name ng sections DATI. ngayon lang naging mga saints. well, para sakin maganda ung dati. hehehe. anyway, ito ang ilan sa mga pangyayari nung first year:

*sa computer class: FAMOUS LINES. hahahaha!
"okay class, seat on your computer."
"class, if you will not shut up, i will shut you down!"
"okay class, ilagay niyo ang mga silya sa ilalim ng kahoy."
"if you hate me, i hate you double!"

yan ang mga memorable lines ng computer teacher namin. di ko na sasabihin kung sino kasi mabait akong bata. hahaha!

*sa likod ng classroom: nandun ang mga boys. ewan kung anong kababalaghan ang ginagawa nila dun. basta may something dun. ano kaya un? well, di ko alam. sila lang ang makakapagsabi kung ano un.

*may nagsulat sa board: RANDOLFH THE RED NOSE REINDEER.
anong nangyari? aun umiyak si alain! bakit daw ba kasi siya niloloko. haha. sino ba naman kasing nagsulat nun.

*every monday before earth science: nagmamadali lahat magayos ng gamit para umalis na. pagdating ni mrs. itoralba sa room (naku sorry po sana ok na po kayo sa heaven), wala nang tao kundi ung monday house na puros boys.
mrs. itoralba: "nasan ang classmates niyo?" (hindi exact words)
boys (habang nagwawalis, nagaayos ng chairs, etc.): "UMALIS NA PO SILA."

okay fine, bad kami. hehe.

*earth science class:
favorite tawagin si mr. fermentilla (plantilla dapat pero laging mali) at si mr. aguilar na peyborit ng teacher. itanong niyo sa kanya kung bakit siya peyborit. wahahahaha!

*di ko tanda kung anong class 'to: UMIYAK SI JO-P
may play kasi nun, ang role ni jo-p bakla. may nanloko. si lani sanch ata, umiyak tuloy. ayun , di nakapagperform. si seth ung nagsub sa role niya. sayang nakacostume at makeup pa naman siya nun. hahaha!
Jo-P: "niloloko po kasi ako nila na bakla." (humihikbi, sabay turo kina lani)

*filipino class: (ayon kay janet)
nahuli si enzo ni ginang caraig na gumagapang para mangopya sa quiz.
Enzo: "kinakabahan po kasi ako." (yun ang ginawang dahilan. hahaha!)

*religion class: (ayon kay janet)
nagwala ang teacher namin. malamang dahil maingay kami. ayun inihagis ang lalagyan ng chalk. hahaha!

hmmm...bukod jan, wala na ko masyadong maalala. una sa lahat, ang tagal na. pangalawa, wala ako masyadong pakielam nung time na un. adjustment period pa e. hahaha! kung may kulang, sabihin niyo lang.

SECOND YEAR (olivine)

nung year na 'to pinakamaraming nangyari. iyakan, tawanan at marami pang iba.

*nagpaputok sa classrom yung ibang boys. sina jundel, mua at james ata un. ewan ko kung sino pa ung iba. basta naprincipal sila.

*nagalit si mrs. lucido. well lagi naman siyang galit samin kasi maingay kami. pinunit sa harap namin ang model class certificate kasi di daw kami deserving sabay tapon ng laman ng basurahan sa harap ng room. kamon!

*may nagsusuntukan sa harap ng room dahil nagkapikunan. si mua ang tagaawat. haha.

*nagiyakan sa ilalim ng puno dahil sa issue na ililipat na sa ibang section sina lean, enzo, james at manelon

*battle of the houses: most memorable ang speech play
CINDERELLA vs. EVER AFTER. thursday vs. wednesday house. ehem! ehem! wednesday house ako nun. hahahahaha! proud. hahaha! naniniwala kami na kami ang power house. haha.

*brainstorming na nauwi sa naging bungkot ang house namin sa game. nyahahahaha!

*ang pagbili ni memel ng giant powder. PARA SA KANYA DAW HUMINGI SI MANELON. wahahaha! memel, alam na to ng lahat kaya inexpose ko na okay? past is past nanaman diba? hehe. labyu memel!

*ang kababalaghan na ginagawa ng boys every friday afternoon. sila na lang ulit ang tanungin dito. inosente po akong tao. ang alam ko lang, may picture na sinamsam si ms. ongoco na di kaaya aya. uhm, james, alam mo ba un? hahahahaha!

*homeroom time: UMIYAK SI ALAIN. nanaman. nung first year umiyak na siya diba? pero ito ang reason. NILOKO SIYA NA KAMUKHA NI OSAMA BIN LADEN! so ang nangyari, pinatayo lahat ng boys at ipinaturo kay alain kung sino ang may kasalanan. ang verdict: SI MANELON. ayun, nagalit lahat ng girls kay manelon! namutla si manelon. wahahahahaha!

*mga "pagduty" ng ilan sa mga boys sa chapel. alain, lean, kayo yan! nyahahaha! gawin bang dating place ang chapel. tsk, tsk. haha.

*pagtambay sa ilalim ng kalachuchi after class. wala na ang mga kalachuchi na yun ngayon. sadness. :(

*ang suicidal na pagtalon ni gian sa apoy este bonfire nung camp out. hahaha! buti na lang di siya sa apoy nagland. kamusta naman un.

*nung year nga pala na 'to nagstart ang loveteams na lean and gelli(actually first year pa pala sila) at alain and rosebil. haha.

*away ng ilan sa mga boys dahil lang sa isang girl. soooooo high school. haha!

okay, wala na ulit akong maalala. hahaha. feeling ko marami pa ko nakalimutan. haha. moving on...

THIRD YEAR (topaz)

in fairness nakakapagod din magreminisce. hahaha. pero another year, third na.

*may napalipat samin tulad nina mr. joey. meron ding umalis tulad nina kuya karl at seth. at meron din naman na napalipat tulad nina lean, manelon, enzo at james. in short, medyo sad nung first few weeks.

*ang dramatic entrance ni alain nung first day. sinadya niyang magpalate. hahahaha! at kamon! di namin kinaya ang hairstyle niya nun! hahaha! plus ang long sleeves na suot niya pero super init naman. hahaha!

*puros debates sa social studies. kinakareer naman namin. hahaha!

*nagsit-in si pierre. na ultimate crush ni kelogs! wahahaha! obsessed na nga ata kasi ayon kay kelogs, magpapagawa daw sila ng pyramid ni pierre. siya daw ang queen! at si pierre ang king! wahahahaha!

*dahil sa pagkaobsess ni kelogs, laging nauubos ang elmers glue ko. pauso kasi siya nung nagsusulat ng name ng crush sa desk gamit ang glue. di ko 'to ginawa. supplier lang ako ng glue okay. haha. ayun, one time napadikit si sir kit sa basa pa na glue, nagalit tuloy. si kelogs ang pauso nun! hahaha!

*naginarte ang mga boys nung nagsit-in si pierre. di na daw namin kasi sila pinapansin. ang dadrama. hahaha!

*nagiyak si sister annie. kasi lagi kaming nagpapalate sa class para lang di pumasok sa religion. hehe. ang babad.

*anong ginagawa para malate? maglulunch sa mcdo. halos buong class 'to. tapos paguwi sasabihin sa driver ng jeep na iikot kami sa sampalok lake at tadaaaa! pagdating sa canossa, late kami. di na makakapasok sa first period (religion). haha. un yon. isang oras na naghahabulan lang sa field. parang mga bata. hahaha!

*filipino class: HABANG NANONOOD NG NOLI ME TANGERE. inilagay ni kelogs sa ulo niya ung pangdecor sa xmas tree.
Gng. Vargas: "lopez! ano nanamang kaartehan (o kalandian ata) yan?!"
Kelogs: "ginang hindi niyo po kasi ako naiintindihan e." (sabay iyak)

*speaking of xmas tree. well, may giant xmas tree kami sa gitna ng classroom. as in totoong pine tree na sobrang baho nung aalisin na namin. haha. nabulok na kasi ung ilalim. hahaha!

*nilock sina jundel at rachelle sa sil office para lang maibigay ni jundel ung bday gift niya kay rachelle. uhm, kuya rowell ang alam ko third year talaga 'to nangyari. hehe.

*ayon kay janette: ang pagbirit ni ginang vargas ng "ibon mang may layang lumipad" habang may lipstick sa ngipin. ehehehe.

aun. again, wala na ulit ako maalala. haha. so last year na...

FOURTH YEAR (diamond)

hay, mejo nawawalan na ko ng energy, pero malapit na matapos! kaya pa 'to ng memory ko. hahaha! game.

*the famous KITTY BOYS. jundel, mark and carlo. nung una faradocs daw sila. pero since sinaulo nila ung kanta sa hello kitty na cartoons, ayun, tinawag nila ang sarili nila na ganito. mas una sila sa kitty girls. hahaha. anyway, sila lang naman ang nagnanakaw ng pera kay dacky na lalagyan ng aming class fund para ipambili ng ice cream!

*presscon: nagalit si jo-p sa mga kasama niya kasi pinagtaguan siya. pati ung hindi kasali sa nanloko sa kanya isinama niya sa mga hindi niya pinapansin. hahaha! nagiyak nga pala ulit siya.

*july '03. trip sa mga universities plus lakwatsa. un din pala ang time ng OAKWOOD MUTINY. wala kaming kaalam alam na habang nagpapakasaya kami sa glorietta may mga bomba na pala sa paligid. kamon! malay ba namin. nagalala tuloy ang mga magulang namin.

*math class: magcocompute na ng mga problems gamit ang scientific calcu.
Joel: "sir sandali lang, wala akong signal." (sabay taas ng calcu niya sa maliwanag na part. solar kasi ung kay mr. joey wahahaha!)

*before first class. isang magandang good morning samin...
Mrs. Alidio (principal): "diamond, you're sleeping like a log! wake up from your deep slumber!"

*mr. joey, emo mode: "kung hindi tayo, sino pa? kung hindi ngayon, kelan pa?" uhm...kanino kaya ito ipinatatama? haha! peace mr. joey!

*math class. balisa si sir dela mar. malayo ang tingin, parang pinagpapawisan...
Sir. Dela Mar: "mga tottoy, mga ineng, lalabas lang ako saglit ha. kelangan ko lang pumunta sa cr."
Kami: "sure sir. take your time..."
pagbalik niya sa room, nakasmile. success! hahaha.

*ang third eye ni princess. ayon sa kanya, may katabi daw kami nina kelogs na multo. si kelogs natakot, lumipat ng seat. hahaha!

*napagalitan ang mga girls ni ms. lajara kasi di sineseryoso ang la cumbia. hahaha!

*pagtambay sa stage na blue kung saan pinipilit ni richmond na ipasok ang sarili niya dun sa butas sa ilalim. hahaha!

*famous loveteams: MEMEL and MANELON. AJ and TRIX.

*away bati lovers. ang super rocky na relationships ng taon! eto: JAMES and JOANNA. ALAIN and ROSEBIL. no need to explain. well, di na sila ngayon. civil daw ung unang pair. ung second pair friends na daw. hehehe.

*ang mga kwentong barbero ni jundel: ma kadyo at mary jane. marami pa. di ko lam kung ano pa ung iba. meron pa ngang zoo e. pero di na un kwento ni jundel.

ayan. wala na ko maisip. hahaha! so yan ang ilan sa mga nakakatawang pangyayari nung high school. i bet marami pa kong di nasabi or hindi ko alam. haha.

grabe, ang tagal na rin nito. mga nakagrad na ang marami samin at nagwowork na. pero isa lang masasabi ko. the best ang high school. daming sobrang di makakalimutan na experiences at pangyayari. hahahahaha!

marami na rin nangyari na pagbabago sa paglipas ng panahon. isa na jan ang pagtaba ng mga dating payat. hahaha! ehem! alain! ehem! haha. pero kahit ganun, di parin nagkakalimutan. naks!

Decode by Paramore

2008-10-16T22:38:00.002+08:00

How can I decide what's right
When you're clouding up my mind?
I can't win your losing fight
All the time.

How can I ever own what's mine
When you're always taking sides?
But you won't take away my pride.
No, not this time.
Not this time.

How did we get here?
I used to know you so well.
How did we get here?
Well, I think I know.

The truth is hiding in your eyes
And it's hanging on your tongue.
Just boiling in my blood.
But you think that I can't see
What kind of man that you are,
If you're a man at all.
Well, I will figure this one out
On my own.
(I'm screaming, "I love you so.")
On my own.
(My thoughts you can't decode.)

How did we get here?
I used to know you so well, yeah.
How did we get here?
Well, I think I know.

Do you see what we've done?
We've gone and made such fools
Of ourselves.
Do you see what we've done?
We've gone and made such fools
Of ourselves.

How did we get here?
I used to know you so well, yeah, yeah.
How did we get here?
Well, I used to know you so well.
I think I know.
I think I know.

There is something I see in you.
It might kill me.
I want it to be true.

i love love love paramore! he was right, maganda nga ung kantang 'to. nice lyrics. :D clap clap clap!

PLURK!

2008-10-15T22:00:00.001+08:00

wahahaha! mahoohook ata ako dun. pero si kelogs lang nakakausap ko dun. hahahaha!

try niyo rin. :D masaya. hehehehe.

hindi ako nagtatago, umiiwas lang.

2008-10-14T23:20:00.003+08:00

nakausap ko si pepits (james) kanina. haha. tagal ko rin di nakausap ang lokong un. may utang pang cake sakin un. anyway, nung magkausap kami nakausap ko rin nun si alain kasi may sinabi lang ako. e nung magmemessage ulit ako kay alain, bigla kong nakita na may isang tao na online din pala sa list ng high school friends bukod sa kanilang dalawa. kaya ginawa ko nanaman ang nakasanayan kong gawin recently - maginvi ng biglaan.

so niloko ako ni james at tinanong kung bakit ba daw naginvi pa ako. pinigilan pa ako na wag na daw. e determinado ako. actually, di ko lam kung bakit recently madalas ko un ginagawa. oo lagi akong online kasi once na nagnet ako, automatic na nagssignin na rin ako sa ym. di ko ugali na maginvi unless marami talaga akong ginagawa or tinatamad akong makipagusap. kasi wala naman akong tinataguan. ayokong magstealth kung may isa o dalawang tao ako na ayokong makausap. ang bad naman kasi pag ganun. di lang un kaya ng konsensya ko. haha. pero ewan ko ba kung bakit pag nagoonline ang taong un mas pinipili ko na lang na mawala kahit may kausap ako.

naalala ko tuloy ung sabi ni memel dati, "naku, pag ganun mapapasign out ka na lang kahit ayaw mo." nasa isip ko nun hindi ko un gagawin kasi di naman ako ganun. bakit ako iiwas e wala naman akong ginawa diba? pero ngayon narealize ko may point ung sinabi ni memel. kasi ganun na ung ginagawa ko.

sorry pero mas okay na ganun e. kesa naman lokohin ko ang sarili ko na okay na okay ako. ayokong isipin pero nakakalungkot pag naalala mo na dati nagagalit sayo pag di ka namansin. na dati kakabukas mo pa lang may nagmessage na sayo. pero ngayon kahit pareho kayong nandun hindi kayo nagpapansinan. parang wala lang. parang wala nang pakielam sa isa't isa.

hindi ko alam kung bakit pero un ang nangyayari ngayon. kaya ako kesa naman mahirapan mas pinipili ko na lang na umiwas. pag may gusto lang akong sabihin sasabihin ko. tapos siguro after ilang minutes magsisignout na ako.

kariza, halatang halata mo na 'to. haha. pag nawala ako ung god of storms and violence lang ang biglang nagonline. haha. ayokong pahirapan ang sarili ko. masaya ako kasi maraming okay na nangyayari sa life at thankful ako dun.

so bakit ang lakas ng loob ko na ipost ang entry na 'to dito? haha. dahil alam kong HINDI NIYA 'TO BABASAHIN. hahaha.

hay makatulog na nga.

flashbacks.

2008-10-13T21:54:00.006+08:00

moments ago, i've read probably one of the best short stories that i had seen on the net. and i literally cried when i was halfway through it. hahaha.

seriously, that story just made me remember every single moment, every single word, every single line that he did to me slash told me 11 months ago. as in sapul na sapul.

sad to say, but i just realized that it was the main reason why i cried.

haha.

2008-10-10T00:21:00.003+08:00

iv'e been playing cooking dash for hours already. nakakaadik kasi although i can't pass one level that's why i decided to stop. tomorrow na lang ulit ako maglalaro. haha.

wait, later pala. morning na nga pala. haha. okay so i need to sleep already.

gudmornyt. haha. zzzzzzz.

p.s. i'll buy that book (twilight series). i searched the plot a while ago and i like it. waaaaa! nakakamiss kiligin. haha.

pretending to be okay.

2008-10-07T14:41:00.004+08:00

i thought that after everything that happened i can definitely say that now i can stand on my own but a while ago i realized that i was wrong...so wrong that i want to punch myself for feeling this way again. for feeling so helpless and for struggling to be just fine.

my friends would always tell me that they're happy to see that i'm doing well. that i learned how to face my worst fears and all the pain that was once there melted away as months passed by but then again, i was so stupid for believing that i'm okay.

now, it just hit me straight into the depths of my soul. i just feel like crying all over again. but here i am trying to put up a strong front. pretending to be okay, pretending to hide the pain.

i have given enough advices to my friends who desperately needed my help while here i am sitting alone at one corner of our home, realizing the fact that i'm the one who needs those things that told them. that i should stop pretending, that i have to admit to myself that i'm not okay, because i'm not just torn apart but...broken. :c

Dear Seth,

2008-09-27T21:52:00.007+08:00

Hi. I'm not sure why I'm writing a letter to you here in my blog. Maybe because I'm quite sure that you will not be able to read this. Funny isn't it?

We both know that we haven't talked for a couple of months. What I mean is a "serious talk". I never expected that this will happen to us. But I learned to accept that change is really inevitable. Maybe you do have reasons why you suddenly "disappeared". Acads? Family? I really don't know. I'm just hoping that someday our paths would cross again and we'll be able to talk.

The truth is I do miss you a lot. I miss the good mornings, his and hellos. I miss our chats and even those moments that we just shared the silence when we were together (parang ung nandun lang sa parang poem na binigay mo dati). I miss you so much that each and everyday you're always on my mind. And there are times that I would ask myself so many questions which I can't answer because you're the only one who could.

Seth, for the nth time, you did it again. And I'm still here trying to understand you even though I feel that at this point in time you don't want to be understood. I don't know if you're still the same sweet, caring and loving guy that I came to know a few months back. I'm scared...so scared.

Whatever it is that's still bothering you, I hope it'll be okay soon. Maybe God really has a reason for all of the things that happened between us. I realized that this way, we were able to focus more on our career.

How I wish you were there during the times that I felt so helpless. Those times when I needed you most. I've waited for your call, and even for your messages. But then I just waited for nothing.

I hope you're still there.

I hope one day, you'll pass by and take sometime to read this page like you used to.

I MISS YOU. I really really do.

Koo

exhausted.

2008-09-23T22:51:00.006+08:00

here i am blogging again. i'm supposed to be sleeping now but i'm still wide awake. there are so many things that kept bothering me and i just need to release some of it in this entry.

okay, so it's been like a month since the last time that i cried. well, i'm quite proud of it. i think i'm already numb and all but a while ago i don't know what came to me. i felt like crying again. maybe i'm just tired of trying to understand everything. yes, THINGS HAVE CHANGED and i'm very much aware of that. but at the back of my mind there are still so many questions left unanswered.

i will not deny the fact that i'm deeply hurt because i still don't know what REALLY happened, why all of a sudden i was left alone in the middle of nowhere.

i'm still confused. =(

maybe...someday, everything will be okay. I HOPE.

for now, i just need to focus on my review and try to think of happy thoughts. *sigh.

i'm really really tired.

review update.

2008-09-21T23:55:00.003+08:00

studied building construction today. nakakapagod. hay. tomorrow furniture naman. hopefully i'll finish that subject tomorrow. ewan ko ba naeexcite naman akong magaral. hehe. i'm in the mood. haha.

happy thoughts. happy thoughts. ^_^

think of happy thoughts :D

2008-09-18T22:21:00.002+08:00

i must not be depressed.

i must not panic.

nyahahaha.

be happy.

smile! smile! smile! :D

='(

2008-09-16T22:52:00.002+08:00

I MISS EVERYONE!!!!!!!!

*sigh

kuya, where art thou?

2008-09-13T23:27:00.004+08:00

hi kuya!

i know you don't like it when i call you kuya but i missed it.

i hope you're okay. just always believe in yourself.

fight kuya! fight! keep on praying.

kuya, i miss talking to you. :'(

i don't even know if you can read this.

i'm back. haha.

2008-09-13T23:06:00.004+08:00

okay. so i missed blogging here. awww.

i realized that most of my entries here were full of rants, anger, bitterness, a couple of mushy things, etc. hahahaha.

the truth is: the clock is ticking. just a couple of weeks left before the board exams, and i'm actually scared. we had our mock boards at cdep last week and more effort must still be exerted especially in the design part. waaaaaa! i almost finished it. rendering na lang. but then, ms. jayzel came to get our plates already. it was too close. kala ko naman kasi 'til 5pm. hanggang 4 lang pala. haha.

but that was close enough. at least i was able to use my masterboard. haha. babaw. but serously, i'm glad i was able to do the perspectives kahit di ko narender. need to work faster. whew!

next week: up mock boards. not yet ready for it. my mind is still too tired to accept any additional information that's why i decided just to scan my old readings.

so that's it.

i'll post some more here. really did miss it. :)

last post.

2008-05-25T14:39:00.000+08:00

this would probably be my last post here at blogger. my posts will now be in my livejournal account (http://nfraginal.livejournal.com).

hihi. ;p

hmmmmmm...

2008-05-21T19:25:00.000+08:00

hahaha. nakakatawa.

What's Your Perfect Kiss?

My Result: Butterfly Kiss

Shy and sweet, your perfect kiss is the fluttery little butterfly kind. There's nothing like feeling some delicate whispy lashes on your cheek or eyelids. It's so romantic! You're probably the type who blushes during hot-and-heavy movie sex scenes and who likes a little bit of mystery in your romance, right? It's not that you're totally shy or always the wallflower, you just prefer to let things happen naturally and take your time getting really comfortable.

Of course you like to go all out sometimes, especially when you're in your comfort zone, so don't let anyone call you a prude. You just appreciate the finer — and sweeter — things in life the most. So keep it up and have a blast!

What are you?
http://web.tickle.com/jumpto?test=perfectkissogt&c=50652

nagparamdam si ms. matthews! wahahaha!

2008-05-18T15:36:00.000+08:00

a few minutes ago, i received a phone call from janette. weee! hahaha. nakakatawa nga kasi i didn't feel na nasa other side of the world na siya. parang nasa tiaong lang siya. haha. natawa pa ko sa una niyang sinabi: "mabisyong gabi ba?" hahaha! parang normal lang na usapan na puno ng katatawanan. as in laugh trip lang nga kami sa konting minuto na kamustahan. hahaha. hay, kakamiss talaga si lola.

anyway, according to her, malapit na ang muli niyang pagbabalik sa cyberwold. haha. so pipol, watch out! haha. pede na nga daw pala siyang itext kasi nakaroaming siya. hehe. ;p

bored. tired. sleepy.

2008-05-17T16:33:00.000+08:00

i'm soooooooo bored,

sooooooooooooo tired,

sooooooooooooooo sleepy.

for janette ;)

2008-05-12T13:38:00.000+08:00

hi lola! hehehe. la lang. di kasi ako nakagawa ng letter for you. nagiging comedy mode kasi lagi. hehehe. actually ganun nga ngayon eh. pinpilit ko talaga na maging serious. haha. anyway, gusto ko lang magthank you sa lahat. i never thought na magiging isa ka sa mga PINAKAkaclose ko kasi di naman tayo masyadong naguusap nung high school. ang naaaalala ko lang nun ung tinatawag kitang "sexy" pati nung pinupuri ko lagi ung handwriting mo. hahahaha. un lang.

ngayong college lang talaga kita nakilala. naks! at sobrang dami ko talagang natutunan sayo. kahit ung mga simpleng payo mo. haaay, nakakatulong talaga sakin especially ung about regrets na di ko binura sa phone ko ng ilang months kahit na laging nagfufull na ung memory. haha. sobrang thank you talaga.

syempre walang tatalo sa mga nakakatawang moments with you. hahaha! sa sobrang dami, di ko na maeenumerate lahat lahat. pero di ko makakalimutan tong mga 'to:

1. slum dunk mo sa mrs. fields
2. ung pagtakbo natin kay dr. jackal dahil tinakot tayo ni rowell
3. napagalitan tayong dalawa sa bus kasi maingay daw tayo (hahaha)
4. ung pinabayaan mo kong malasing at tinatanong mo talaga ako kung gusto ko si ehem na hindi naman talaga. kaya nagsermon tuloy ako. hahaha.
5. ang valentines day 2008! for the AHNBH klab. grabe un. hahaha. with kuya sa tomato kick na hindi sinunod ang order natin. hay nako.
6. of course, ang pagkakabuo ng ahnbh klab nung on the way tayo papuntang moa. hahaha!
7. ang di natuloy na panonood natin ng You Are The One. haha.
8. picturan with tkg sa sunken with jaythee's charmee pose. haha.
9. ang walang sawang pagkain natin sa burger king at pagorder ng meal C. wahahaha! un nga ba un? C nga ba? haha.
10. ay eto pa! ang pagiging fan natin ng Hiram! na nung una ayaw pa nating panoorin kasi feeling natin baduy. wahahaha!
11. ung tinawag mo ko sa bus na "kookster g!" na sobrang lakas. feeling ko namutla ako nun kasi nagtinginan ang mga tao sakin. *balisa*
12. at syempre ang pagbibinyag mo sakin ng pangalan na kookster galore na naging kookster g! na naging koo steh jee na naging kookster jee at ngayon naman ay director jee. whew! grabe ang pageevolve! wahahaha!

hay, marami pa talaga pero dahil nga lutang parin ako dahil sa party mo nung sat, di ko maalala ung iba. hay. di naman ako uminom dahil inatasan mo akong maging dakilang tagabantay sa sumisigaw na high school friends. ayan. hahaha.

hmm. ayan, balik muna sa serious mode. hehe. baka di mo kasi alam na isa ka sa mga sobrang pinagkakatiwalaan ko na tao. marami akong mga secrets na sayo ko talaga nasasabi lalo na ung mga moments with you-know-who. ikaw talaga ung una kong nasasabihan lalo na ung mm moments kahit na nakalimutan mo na ikaw naman talaga ung una kong sinabihan nung ps. ay nako. anyway, thank you talaga. salamat rin sa pagtitiwala mo ng sakin kasi shinashare mo rin ung sayo. ang pagiging AH mo. ay nako, makikilala mo na sina brad, chad and pete pag nagfly ka na. balitaan mo ko ha pag di ka na AHNBH. hehe. aabangan ko un. weee! babalitaan rin kita sa mga sagutang magaganap. pero di pa un ngayon e. hehe.

basta lola, mamimiss talaga kita. as in. sobra. gaya nga ng sabi mo, magkawavelength tayo. kaya ayan, wala na kong makakausap sa ym lagi, wala na kong malalabasan ng sama ng loob. ang mga "hay nalulungkot ako" moments sobrang mamimiss ko. waaaa! nakakaiyak naman. huhuhu. basta keep in touch. pag may problem ka, email mo lang ako. hehe. see you sa cyberworld! aylabyu lola.

ingat ka sa mga arabo sa dubai. wahahaha! i-hi mo ko kay queen! wahahaha! mamimiss talaga kita.

-kooster jee ^^,

P.S. ang excess baggage ay mahirap talagang iwanan pero wala tayong magagawa. minsan talaga kelangan un para makamove on ng maayos. hehe.

tagaytay trip. ;)

2008-05-04T15:23:00.000+08:00

after ellaine's grad celebration na sobrang enjoy at parang fiesta, tinotoo na talaga ung ayaan na pumuntang tagaytay. mga 2 am na ata un tapos mga wala pang tulog. in short, mga bangag pa. la ko makwento masyado dun sa trip papunta dun kasi tahimik lang kami pareho ni seth sa sasakyan-parang nagsoundtrip lang. pano ba naman kasi nagsiksikan ung lima (joa, tracy, enzo, alain at jundel) dun sa kotse ni gian. sinusundan lang namin sila papunta dun kasi di ko lam ung daan tapos di rin niya alam. bawat tigil pipikit para magising kahit papano. pero nakarating naman kami dun safely. hehe.

ayun, pumunta nga sa tagaytay para bumili ng kape sa starbucks. hahaha. although di naman ako bumili kasi ayoko. haha. magsasarado na nga ung startbucks dun. naiwan pa nga kami sa labas ni seth nung una. kung di pa ko nawiwiwee di kami papapasukin dun. hay. lameeeeg dun. as in. tumambay pa ng mga ilang minuto dun ung 6 habang nagpopower nap naman kami sa sasakyan. kakaantok na talaga e. tapos maya ng konti pinalabas na rin sila tapos lipat na ng venue.

grabe, sobrang foggy. di mo na masyadong nakikita ung daan. sobrang dahan dahan na nga ung takbo kasi in a way delikado un. tapos ayun, nakarating din sa bagong tatambayan na hindi pala pedeng tambayan. di naman namin alam na bawal pala dun. haha. laugh trip na kasi. nagrereminisce ng mga kalokohan nung high school tapos ang ingay ingay. naalala ko tuloy nung napagalitan kami dati sa bus kasi ang ingay namin. haha. parang ganun din ung nangyari. mga 5am na ata un biglang may lumapit na staff ata nung inn. sabi bawal daw dun tumambay. may nagreklamo daw na guest na ang ingay daw namin. aun. so...uwian na.

hinatid muna sina tracy, jundel at enzo sa terminal sa balibago bago kami umuwi. mas tahimik ng byahe pauwi. inaantok na talaga. medyo nagising lang sa pagkain ng roller coaster pero kakaantok talaga. haaay. grabe un. kakapagod rin. malamang mas pagod pa sina gian at seth kasi layo talaga ng dnrive nila. anyway, masaya naman. enjoy naman pero nakakaantok talaga. pinatulog na nga ako nung nasa part na ata ng sto tomas. nagising ako alaminos na na feeling ko ang babaw ng tulog ko. hehe. mga 7am na ata ako nakarating dito sa bahay tapos diretso tulog na.

hmmm...after 2 years, kanina lang ulit ako nakapunta ng tagaytay. sayang di nakasama ung iba. sana andun din si mr joey at si lola...pero kahit konti kami, enjoy naman talaga. first time ni tracy sumama sa ganun. haha. excited nga siya talaga.

aun...so kahit na madilim at wala naman nakikita na view...memorable parin talaga 'tong trip na 'to. ^_^

at last.

2008-04-28T22:40:00.000+08:00

i just graduated last april 26 and last night. whew. at last! tapos na. haay. pero nakakamiss. as in. haaay. eto bored na ko. la magawa. la makausap. haaay. ang buhay....lang kwenta tong entry na 'to.

ang sama talaga ng pakiramdam ko....huhuhu.

2008-04-20T19:18:00.000+08:00

hay...grabe ang sama talaga ng pakiramdam ko. dahil talaga 'to sa velocity na un ni alain. haaay. di naman ako uminom. 2 beses lang ung turn ko kasi yoko na talaga. the rest tubig na lang talaga. haaay. ang sama sama talaga sa sikmura. kanina nga nasusuka ako pero ngayon di na naman. pero haaaay...di pa rin normal ang pakiramdam ko. napakasaklap. huhuhu. ano ba yan. haay.

sana naman bukas okay na. luwas pa ko para sa rehearsal namin ng recognition rites. haay. sana talaga okay na tom. haay.

so what's the diff?

2008-04-11T22:45:00.000+08:00

between an entry written in english and an entry written in tagalog...

hmm. i've been thinking hard about this for a few days and well, for now i have a few answers. for me, those blogs which are usually in english are quite depressing. i mean, i've read some of those entries written by my friends and it gave me that kind of feeling. for some, they write their blogs in english if they are very mad or they experienced a very bad situation. and for some...they are not really that good in writing blogs in tagalog.

on the other hand, those written in tagalog could be amusing. maybe because the person who wrote the entry expressed very well his or her emotions and the use of famous tagalog expressions catch the readers' attention. this is one of the reasons why i find blogs written in tagalog very entertaining and those in english...well, kinda boring.

i'm not saying that you should write a blog in tagalog if it will be full of happy thoughts and do one in english if you're in despair or if you feel that the world is crashing down on you. NO. it doesn't work that way. a blog entry is just like an entry in your private journal or diary wherein you write your thoughts in a free manner.

ENGLISH or TAGALOG-it's really up to you.

come to think of it, there's no difference after all. haha!

okay.

2008-03-31T00:06:00.000+08:00

la na problem for now. okay na. nagkausap na. again, nilamon ko ang pride ko. okay na kaya ayun medyo back to normal. nakakatawa nga e kasi ang taray ko talaga ngayon e natatarayan ko ng sobra. di ko naman sinasadya lumalabas lang ng natural. dala na rin ata un ng pms. haha. hay grabe ang tagal nung movie madownload. hay. bagal kasi ng net ko. ano ba yan. antok na ko di ko parin tapos. hay. mukhang mabibitin ako. okay lang sana kung di ako paluwas tom kaso luluwas ako e para isubmit ung thesis ko. hayayay. hmm. konti na lang, sana naman bumilis na para matapos ko.

sleepy na ako. hay.

good feeling gone.

2008-03-28T00:29:00.000+08:00

i'm really really mad this time. i hate this feeling but, i didn't do anything wrong which is why i'm really mad at him!

it seems that he doesn't even feels that i trust him with all my life. what's wrong with that joke? it was just a joke!

argh! hate him.

argh! i hate it!

2008-03-22T22:48:00.000+08:00

did everything the whole day so i ended up being so bored tonight.

everything was perfectly fine, but then again, i saw so many things which got me pissed.

hate it! i really do! argh! i know i shouldn't feel this way but i can't help it! sometimes i feel that its so unfair! i don't understand!

i hate it! i hate it! i hate it!

aaaarrrrrrrrrrrgggggggghhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!

feeling gooooood. ;]

2008-03-16T14:48:00.000+08:00

just finished writing my draft for my creative work. whew!

thank you God for blessing me with a sharp memory. thank you so much!

anyways, it's pacquiao and marquez' match. i'm actually in front of the tv but i'm not watching it. hahaha. my mom and my grandmother are screaming here beside me. hahahaha! can't get over it. hahaha!

hope he'll win again. woohoo! proud to be a filipino. hahahaha!

wishing...hoping...praying...

2008-03-15T23:59:00.000+08:00

that everything would be fine soon.

this goes to the man i love.
i miss you a lot and i just hope that you're okay wherever you are right now.

how i wish you could read this. but there's a very little chance that you would have the time.

take care always.
i love you.

what to do when you need a break from everything

2008-03-15T23:46:00.000+08:00

WATCH A MOVIE! hahaha! i just did it a while ago.

i'm already finished with my thesis defense last firday and it went really well. thank you God. a few revisions and viola! it'll be finished. woohoo!

but then there are still things to be done---my creative work for my cw10 class, my reflection paper for my id 191 class and a final work for my pi 100. whew! so many things, so little time.

i was really really getting stressed because of this so i decided to watch a movie that i have been wanting to watch for ages. She's the Man! woohoo! it's really nice. you should watch it. i mean it may be quite cheesy and all but it's gooood. hahaha!

i love it! just love it. the story is so cool. hahaha!

so tonight i feel so good. i was able to relax a bit and get a hang out of this stressful situation and i was able to finish my reflection paper after watching it!

good job koo! ;P

secrets

2008-03-12T20:31:00.000+08:00

ang dami dami na talaga. tipong nasasayo lang, di mo inilalabas. as in ung iba taon na talaga ang lumipas pero kimkim mo lang lahat lahat. ang hirap pero kelangan na ganun ang gawin. darating rin ang araw na maisisiwalat lahat. pero habang nabubuhay pa ko, sakin lang to. pinagkatiwalaan ako ng mga tao at kelangan kong pahalagahan ang pagtitiwala na un. hay.

....

2008-03-12T20:19:00.000+08:00

di ko lam kung ano ba tong nafifeel ko sa ngayon. una sa lahat bakit ung mga mata ko parang gusto nang pumikit pero ung utak ko gising na gising pa. hay. ang weird naman. tapos eto naiisip ko ung reply ni seth sa mail. hay. buti talaga nagreply na siya. ayun sinabi niya na lahat. naaawa ako. di ko lam kung ano nga ba ung dapat kong sabihin eh. la talaga akong masabi nun. hay. grabe talaga. sana naman maging okay na lahat. daming pangyayari. grabe. haaay.

untitled

2008-03-08T20:35:00.000+08:00

how long will it be like this? i still don't understand why all of a sudden everything has changed. i' m getting tired of waiting but still i'm here, i'm not moving.

i'm getting used to it, i kept telling my friends.

but then again, i'm getting tired really really tired.

a month has already passed.

time has gone so fast.

*sigh*

buti pa ang friendster chinecheck ako hinde!

2008-03-01T17:20:00.000+08:00

kamusta naman diba? buti pa talaga ang fiendster, ang yahoo mail at iba pa. sila kasi naaalalang icheck pero ako hinde! ano ba naman un. normal pa ba yun?

okay fine intindihin na nga. grrr.

i'm tired.

2008-02-24T21:16:00.000+08:00

*sigh*

i'm really really really really tired.

mermaid ako! haha.

2008-01-27T20:15:00.001+08:00

You Are a Mermaid

You are a total daydreamer, and people tend to think you're flakier than you actually are.
While your head is often in the clouds, you'll always come back to earth to help someone in need.
Beyond being a caring person, you are also very intelligent and rational.
You understand the connections of the universe better than almost anyone else.

What Mythological Creature Are You?